Wildflowers > Worries

Hello there! Hope you’re having a wonderful Wednesday. If not, hopefully this will cheer you up.

I got all up in ma’ feels in my journal, and I thought I’d share it here in case someone needs a pick-me-up:

Vulnerable moment:
One of my biggest fears (aside from overpasses, but I’m working on that one) is the fear of feeling alone. I can be alone and feel content, but feeling alone, like no one can understand you or relate to your experiences is terrifying. It’s uncharted, dark territory. Chronic disease plagues me with feeling alone, and the anxiety of that is a heavier burden than I sometimes know how to carry. I actually worry about worrying, and it alienates me. My symptoms echo with fury, and so begins a cycle that is difficult to overcome.

But you have probably experienced this too! If you’re a single parent trying to make ends meet while mustering a smile and encouraging face, or if you are fighting through PTSD from scenes that my mind couldn’t fathom, all while struggling to keep up with being an active member of society, I’m sure you’ve also felt real anxiety from feeling alone, even on completely different spectrums. Everyone’s suffering is real, which is why I believe in love and tenderness above all else. We are all entitled to whichever form of suffering we experience regardless if someone deems it invalid. It is your suffering. It is your fear. It is your life. You feel it regardless if its justified by your friends and family.

But I want to encourage you. Because we are also entitled to hope as human beings.

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid. Do not be terrified. The Lord your God goes with you ; He will never leave you nor forsake you.

I think God knows that the feeling of being alone trumps many great fears, which is why He promises us repeatedly that He’s with us until the very end. So do not fear. Do not be dismayed. You are being upheld by a God who is with you and who is for you. You + God against the world, no matter how unworthy you feel of even asking for peace. God is pleased to make you His own without rejection. You’re not alone.

Hold on to these promises. They are still true today, especially through all of the darkness and the chaos. Your life is not too complicated. Your loneliness is not too broken. Your mind can still find peace. Persist.

Romans 8:31; Matthew 28:20; Isaiah 41:10; Deuteronomy 31:6; 1 Samuel 12:22

I’m gonna be real with you. I have struggles. #StrugglePantsStacey. Sometimes they’re no big deal (like that time I couldn’t find my car in the parking garage even with the panic button, and I thought I was going to have to live there until I died a slow death of carbon monoxide poisoning), and other times they are actual overwhelming problems. Take a step back. Breathe. Feel the wind blowing through your hair. Live moment to moment if one day at a time is overwhelming. See the wildflowers that are here today, because they may be gone tomorrow. Wildflowers always remind me that I am cared for infinitely and unconditionally (Matthew 6:30). The creator of the universe, the biggest baddest being I can fathom, is on my side and is for me. And He’s for you, too. The fact that you are experiencing fear and anxiety from life means that you are a force to be reckoned with. And you are not alone.


P.S. I’m taking ballroom Texas Two-Step classes tonight with my nephew. Boots are business casual for the office, right? No? Oh well. 


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Running for cures; for fun; for breakfast tacos | 20something living in OKC with my dog | Dietetics and Nutrition Student | Learning, living, and writing about it all

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